one month.

2010 has by far been the most stressful time of my life so far, and it is only February.

Let's see--

- I lost my job December 31
- Alan and I found out we were having a baby on January 13
- We got engaged.
- January 17 I started having pregnancy complications & on January 20 I had to have emergency surgery & we lost the baby
- my dad lost his job
- My sister is having some issues with people at school and dealing with things she shouldn't have to.
- SC Unemployment denied by claim because of Megan Martin-- who is the world's biggest bitch.
- Alan is working two jobs so that I don't have to go back to work yet. I am clearly not ready to be back in the social world and he is taking on a great deal to help me out. I love him :)

Among many other family issues that aren't really blog appropriate.


Oh life-- why must you be so damn stressful? I can't wait until I am back to my old self (which let's face it, may never happen.) I have to say, I am much stronger of a person than I ever thought I could be and I am so proud of how Alan and I have dealt with everything we have had to go through this year. In the end it will make our relationship so much stronger and I know that, it's just hard getting there.  I'll have to say, it really is times like these that you find out who your true friends are--it takes a lot to be there for someone so selflessly. I admire anyone who is so willing to be here for Alan and me during such a hard time in our lives--through the crying, anger, random mood changes, insomnia etc. It takes a lot, and I am so grateful to everyone who has been so wonderful to us this last month. You have no idea how much you mean to us and I could never thank you enough for how much you have truly helped us. I could never express to you all how much you mean to us.